Not really intriguing.

The blog title is not poor grammar...I'm actually not intriguing, but I'm definitely intrigued. I thought I'd give this a go. I've never had a diary - never felt the need to record things for myself. It's dawned on me lately though, that I'm intrigued by the idea of exploring what's on my mind in a way that allows me to be exposed without jeopardy. Well, here I am - a depository of thoughts anonymously hidden for all to see. The risk of someone reading this is the turn on - the fact it's available makes my heart race, but it's not an ego thing. I guess, by definition, if one writes a blog, there is some ego involved. But, at this point, it doesn't matter to me whether anybody reads this - maybe later it will.

So, why do it? I guess I'm not sure yet...there is something going on in my head (a good change) unthreatening to my normal life, and maybe worth exploring. Hrm..."normal life." Well, I'm a professional, well respected within the profession and within my firm. But, those that know me, know that is not what is important to me. Perhaps, throughout my posts, we'll figure out what is. I'm in my late 30's and pretty geeky. Never really thought of myself as attractive, and realizing it's mostly because I've never had to think about it. And, believe me, it's not because I have ever had women falling all over me. I just don't have a good sense of how others consider my looks. Maybe we'll get into that later, too.

The intention here is to let loose a bit, which, seems to mean sexual exploration lately. I've crossed a few boundaries lately, and I kind of like it. I remain faithful to myself and those that I love - that won't change. But, like this little diary, I've been stepping beyond myself a bit. A little naughtiness has been pretty damn fun, so exploring (did I mean "exposing?") a little here is part of the game. The rules aren't written yet, but right now, I consider this space fair game. Explicit? A little. Photos? Maybe. Naughtiness? Yep.